when you believe
everything is finished.
That will be the beginning.
-- author unknown
Mom and baby are doing just fine.
We got another round of blood work results today that everything is on track and progressing quite smoothly. The baby is even a week ahead of growth schedule so hopefully he takes a chill pill and realizes that it's all about the journey and not the destination!
Now, if I can get the wife to eat more protein, I'd be happy as a.......pig.
Yes, she and baby need lotsa protein. Both for all the changes her body is going through but also for the baby's development and for the strength of the baby's lifeline - the placenta.
I say this because one of the "symptoms" of mommy to be is that she is turning "fruitatarian" on me. All she wants to eat is fruit, oh yeah and the occasional bean and cheese burrito. And how can I forget her beloved Cheetos.
I don't know if it's the current journey we are on that has heightening awareness to the lens I see life through, but there is a definite change.
A metamorphosis of sorts is well underway.
This is accelerated by the fact that as of late, the circle of life has been manifesting itself around those in our lives through births, ailments, and deaths. I may venture to say in an inordinate frequency. Here's what has been going on over the past few weeks:
- A grammar school friend was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis
- An LA friend was diagnosed with Parkinson's Disease
- Two friends gave birth to their babies this week
- Another friend is due today or tomorrow
- Numerous high profile people have passed, including today the founder of a childhood favorite, King Taco at 71
- The passing of a dear friend, ex boss, and colleague of over 15 years
- A scare with Mom's health
- And today, our morning started with the news that a special person in our lives was hospitalized with potential cancer.
The latter has me a bit shaken up. Turns out he had lost a lot of weight recently coupled with several late night drenched-in-sweat bouts. We had been nagging him to see a doctor, but like most, stubbornly would oblige to quiet our nagging but wouldn't follow through.
Last night strong sharp pains at 1am forced him to be hospitalized. We are awaiting the liver biopsy and again, staying positive for an uneventful outcome. Some of the symptoms and facts about the doctor's perspective though are keeping me on guard.
This circle of life awareness phase has made me reflect on a powerful story I read yesterday about regrets of things not done in life while on one's deathbed.
I'd like to share that story here as it's quite relevant to numerous conversations I've had with "the wife" (term of endearment if you are wondering) many a times. I've expressed to her that I do not ever want to live life with regrets. I am who I am without excuses. I live life through my lens and with passion. As such, I've turned off many whom have crossed my life's path along the way for my overt personality or boisterous opinionated perspective on just about anything. I've been coached many a times to "dial things down a notch" but that is not how I am wired. It's back to a principle tenet of mine to live life without regret. I shared with my life partner that I want us to be 77 years old (yes the seven's again) in a retirement home porch somewhere on our rockers holding hands and reminiscing about our life without having had any woulda coulda shoulda moments. I'm glad that to date I've been loyal to my outlook in life. No regrets.
That is why this story is so powerful to me. I hope you can take a couple nuggets of wisdom from it as well.
It was written by Bronnie Ware and published 11/27 on true activist website.
Nurse reveals the top 5 regrets people make on their deathbed
People grow a lot when they are faced with their own mortality. I learnt never to underestimate someone’s capacity for growth. Some changes were phenomenal. Each experienced a variety of emotions, as expected, denial, fear, anger, remorse, more denial and eventually acceptance. Every single patient found their peace before they departed though, every one of them.
Tonight, I say a prayer for that special person and ask you include him in yours...